bad joe memory 1
Thursday, May 24, 2007i am doing this so i start remembering the reasons why i broke up with him and why things couldn't work out.
it was a few days before christmas and joe was already done with work. he told me he would call me when he got home, and it was almost midnight and i haven't heard from him yet.
i called him trying to ask what was going on. he didn't take my call. rather, he sent me an sms that he was putting the kids to sleep and that he would call me in a while. 20 minutes passed and still nothing. then he calls. it sounded so quiet and i was wondering why he didn't call me up in my room. he gave a lame excuse that he was getting something from the car. and so i told him to call me up once he gets to his apartment, he agreed. another ten minutes passes and still nothing. my phone rings. it was so noisy. there were kids screaming and people talking and it seemed like there were cars passing too. it was weird, he said he couldn't hear me, and said he would call again. i wait another 20 minutes. i call him. he rejects my call. i call again, and he doesn't pick up. i keep calling fro the next 10 minutes since i felt like that weird number who always used to call him when we would be out on dates but he would never pick up…i was freaking out.
i asked him. what the hell is going on. why aren't you answering my calls.
his in-laws were there. and he didn't want them to get suspicious. and his son woke up, so he had to put him back to sleep and then entertain the guests. i asked him if his ex was there. he told me she was in the states, that she would be back after christmas. i told i understood his situation and even if his ex was there, i would understand. what i couldn't understand was why he had to lie and play games with me. i felt so hurt.
maybe he was lying about that too. or maybe not. but i guess one of the reasons why it couldn't work out, was because of the fact that he prioritized his in-laws over me, and that he was ashamed of letting people know about me. i don't think anyone should ever feel ashamed about going out with me. i guess it was one thing that really hit my self-esteem. that the person i loved was too ashamed to admit to people that he was dating me. and that hurts. but i stuck wit him. i didn't have the strength to break things off then.
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